Man, I can't seem to catch my breath lately. I miss my friends and exclusive mommying. I have crammed my plate with volunteer ventures. All in the name of being helpful to my community and family but busy nonetheless. Here is a breakdown:
I'm on the steering team with MOPS which is a community group of christian mothers of preschoolers who share in life, fellowship and always yummy food once a month. The additional time as a leader in this group has me doing more in my "free time". Hahaha, I know funny right.
I volunteer for various ministries in the church. I now find myself being one of those people who can't say no when asked to help out. I have to check their schedule with my schedule to see if I'm required to be there rather than just show up and praise. I've found serving in the mass adds an element of stress for me and I'm sure it is supposed to be the opposite effect.
I have a few squadron related jobs as well. I organize the weekly playgroups and meals for families with new babies.
I just started volunteering with the red cross. I will be "working" on the perinatal unit doing who knows what, the optimal goal being the accrual of 30 volunteer hours and on my own "free time" completeing 30 CEUs so I can renew my LPN license. Why renew you ask? Well, our future with the AF is uncertain. We do know that if Adam decides his career path leads him elsewhere we need to be prepared for the financial hit we will take and I may (most likely) need to supplement our income. Hmmm... that provides much more of a stress factor for me because now I have to juggle the home, finances, raising children and a job? Good grief.
Lastly, the Bradley birth education. Or maybe the lack of education? I haven't been able to start a class yet. I can't advertise because I am not a fully affiliated teacher so where does that leave me? How about out 2K in education and travel expenses with not a dime of earned income to displace that. In short right now, I just feel shit on despite all my public service.
2 comments:
I'm proud of you! For me its so hard to commit to anything because I want to be available when Josh has free time or have the chance to travel home to my parents' if he's gone for an extended period of time. Good for you! Do things just for you to maintain your "I'm not just a mommy" identity. I'm still working on how to sort that out :-)
Ya know, I gave fliers to th CNM that delivered my last baby and I am planning on doing more at health food stores, naturopaths and chiropractors. How are you supposed to teach if you dont have students? How are you supposed to get students if you cant get the word out? Just one of the many things that frustrates me about Bradley. So I just ignore it and do my own thing. With every thing else...hang in there. We all go through periods where we feel crappy. This new move ought to help out too. Good luck with it all, remember how awsome you are :)
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